Blogging and How it Has Affected Me

Last April, I wanted to really write a blog. Not like one of those blogs that you make on a blogging site just because your friends have one there. A real blog, not a tagline - a real domain. I wrote on a lot of blogging sites before, like Xanga and Live Journal. People on there said I really had a knack for it. Some people said they couldn't stop reading my posts. So, after thinking about those factors I did it.

My blog was first titled - Mentally Missing in Action: The Blog of Julie Chang. I wrote on that blog about my last few days of having very bad depression. My goals, achievements, and daily life was discussed. People seemed to enjoy it, and I enjoyed the rush it gave me. The rush was the emails I would get, and I still do get after I write a post. Negative or Positive Feedback, I enjoy reading what people have sent me. 

In July I decided that the blog needed a new name. Also, in the month of June I learned how to write HTML and my own templates. I changed my blog to JulieTheBlogger.com. I built my own template, and I had a pretty good system going. 

After about 2 months of blogging, I became too comfortable with the whole interface. I began talking about people, and ruining their image. The biggest thing was a family conflict I posted over the internet. I wrote a lot of hurtful things. My family has now disowned me. They will not talk to me, nor respond to emails and etc. It's a mess. I also began to write about instructors for my daily classes. Now all of the instructors act as though I am going to blog about every little word they say.

Blogging has affected me in a negative way. Now, I have no family at all. I also have totally lost the respect of my educators. Everyone looks down on me, and I feel awful. However, sometimes when there is negative, there will also be positive.

In July 2009 I was diagnosed with 2 tumors ( I am not going to tell you where it is, you need to read my blog to figure out that one ) and I began writing about my journey. I talked about every blood test, ultrasound, mammogram, and etc. In that one month, I gained a total of 1,000 readers. It was amazing. Now, I get emails from people with tumors, telling me how much my posts make them feel better about what is happening to them. I also get people saying that they read these posts to people who are ill and they are feeling more comfortable with their health situation.

Blogging has also had a positive effect. I got to help many, many people who were/are suffering. I am happy that I got to do that. The goal of writing those posts was to help others. 

So blogging has effected me in a horribly negative way, and an amazingly positive way. My advice to you would be to please think before you type on that keyboard. I don't care if you are blogging or not. Just think about how much damage you can do, by clicking a - post, submit or send button.

Comments

[Vince]

RE: Just think about how much damage you can do, by clicking a - post, submit or send button.

So true. I have caught myself a couple of times deleting an entire post before hitting that submit button. I am glad you found a positive in all of what sounded like a downward spiral.